rush rush.

we are, as young people are like run out of time. did everything in rush, afraid if we are not like that we can't get what we want.

after graduate from high school, obviously we continue our study to the university with the aim ; we can find more knowledge and hopefully we can get a better job than if we are not have any degree.

for some people, graduate on time was a satisfaction. for self or for family. then we are in hurry to complete all subject and test just to have graduate in time. you can imagine how many hours we spent for studying, doing homework, or such a thing at that moment.

then, four years later... we graduated..

proudly wearing toga and bring tittle behind our name. not stop right there. again we rush rush and rush to find a job. sent application, had an interview, then voila. we get a job.

let's count how many hours we spent :

me for ex ;

9 hours working shift,

2 hours preparation for before an after work (overtime,come early),

2 hours long to get back home or to get the office (fortunately i rent a room so it was just at the end of the week),

2 hours preparation before and after get home. (showering, dinner)

8 hours to sleep (if possible)

so, total 23 hours. i only have 1 hour left for "me" time. and that circumstances above only for daily basis, not included if i have any needs to meet someone, to buy something or, anything else. i thought i need 25/8.

then why young people like us want to hurry and hurry like we run out of time? 

why old people drive their life like they have so much time?

the answer is....stop asking. :))

do your best, be patient, omnia tempus habent ; everything has own time, and it deserve to wait.

BE HAPPY, enjoy every second of your life, and DO PRAY. :))

GOD BLESS, may all beings be good and happy.

you will find the answer when you stop asking.

sometimes you randomly asking why your bus coming late, why traffic light become so long, why coffee shop been so full, and why these all things happen to you.

if you ever felt that way, you better stop asking.

i will make an example for you as me as an object.

before, i thought working in my office is one of a huge mistake i ever did.

far from home and family, all by yourself, and even paycheck never fulfilled your needs.

moreover i realized that my employment contract was a bullshit when i was bleeding to survive in this situation. i feel betrayed, mostly i feel stupid. then i asked, why these happened to me?

day by day, i just blaming myself, why i didnt do that, do this. why why and why.

then, after all these drama, im tired for asking. i stop asking and i feel, let it go, this is my way. 

such an lightning bolt, i realized :

i forgot what i already had instead of i way too busy to looking what i actually should had. i never realize, if iam not working in here, not survive for this seven months not as like other colleague did (several of them only work for two weeks), i never get any compliment from my superbigboss (which is after that compliments my credibility was count), or i never get job offering from korean, japanese people, neither i never get recommendation from my general manager to work with him in another five diamonds star hotel, i never had it if iam not survive.

yeah, not asking is the answer.

we are people, sometimes way too busy to looking what we want, even though we already had what we need, what God provides us. like bible said "birds never go hungry and flowers never get dry even nobody fed and watering them."  fyi, im not christian neither catholic, but i do believe that thought.

so, quit asking if you want the answer. :))